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[Thu 01/19/06 - 8:02 am] |
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things are okay, very confusing, but unfortunantly i have alot of faith, and i dont really want anyone to know what's going on right now. =P
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[Wed 01/18/06 - 3:26 pm] |
hahahahaha'
Quickie:
Being self-sufficient is good, but it's also important to know when to ask for help.
Overview:
The truly important things in this life have absolutely nothing to do with work, money or how nice your car or house is. It's time to start paying attention to the things that matter rather than giving them lip service.
You're due for some excitement in the department of relationships -- the kind that will keep you smiling for at least the next 24 hours. The individual who'll put that flush in your cheeks may also be arranging a lovely surprise for you, too -- something you'll never see coming. They'll be amply rewarded for their efforts, of course. After all if anyone can show gratitude in a charming, wonderful way, it's you.
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[Mon 01/16/06 - 5:34 pm] |
Um.
There's a lot on my mind. but there's alot of hope in my soul i guess.
I feel alot of despair, things i've let sit inside and not let out, in months.
They were glazed over, with i dont even know whats.
Things that helped me make it past the past few months.
My friends, my family, Matthew. My music, My jobs. My car, my kitten, My cat gabe.
But ive become alot stronger, alot less fragile.
I need some time to think, and i need some old friends in my life. I hope no one gets the wrong idea. It's not what you think. it wasn't for that reason at all. i wish you knew.
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[Sun 01/15/06 - 11:06 pm] |
ugh.... i dont know what to think or anything anymore. I broke up with matt, because i haven't seen him in forever, and before that only a couple hours a day, and before that, it was only when were sleeping.
I think its for the better. i got alot closer to him as a person though, and i would like to be his friend despite the no friends with my ex's because he was differant, i think we had more of a friendship together than anything else, and he helped me get througha really hard time.
but me the idiot that i am. I know i'm gunna make some mistakes.
all i have to do is say.
"Make A Mistake" by Brad Paisley
(Written by Brad Paisley)
You over think things
You say what if we're not meant to be
Well, you know what, so what
Make a mistake with me
Nobody goes through this life and does
Everything perfectly
We're all gonna fail, so you might as well
Make a mistake with me
Bridge:
Sometimes baby when we take
A chance that has this much at stake
We look back and in hindsight
What seemed wrong looks more like right
So I say worst case we'll be left with
Lots of good memories
This chance we have, well it's worth that
So make a mistake with me
I'm tellin' you the right thing to do
Is make a mistake
Make a mistake
Make a mistake with me
I dontk now what i'm going to do, but me and matt are better off friends. like he said he lived right down the road, and i saw him less than someone i was dating in NY before he even moved in, even when he was working overnights, and sleeping, we still had more time together, to do things, than me and matt, who lives down the street.
matt has no time for me, and he has too many responsibilities. and if he had called maybe i wouldn't feel this way. but when i asked him 'why didn't you call me?' he replied 'i'm not sure', i rather hear a real excuse, he said we would hang out tonight, and he comes online at 8 or 9 pm. and says hi to me.
I dont know, it crushed me alot. so i think we're best off as friends.
i want to be part of his star wars thing, because i would like to help charities, and escape some part of my reality you know?
i dont know, i got to get to sleep i have alot of work tomorrow. an 8 hour shift in the bakeshop.
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[Sun 01/15/06 - 5:27 pm] |
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REPOST THIS.
Living creatures are suffering for your comfort.
If You pass on any chain mail, I hope you pass on this one.
No one cares about your middle name, or what you did in 2005 or stupid stories that involve killers in the night.
THEY ARENT REAL. GET OVER IT.
THIS IS.
This is wrong to the highest level. Please help spread awareness of the animals that go through testing. It is not right and should be stopped. For more info, visit the PETA website at www.peta.com The following images are of animals that have been used for consumer product testing. They are graphic.
Freaking idiots. Get a life.
If you have a heart you'll repost this.
Hit reply then copy the codes
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[Sun 01/15/06 - 1:00 pm] |
Everyone must buy atleast one box of girlscout cookies from me =P or your local girlscout. any i sell goes directly towards the troop, and the number is divided by the number of girls, and they'd get prizes for it. Prizes are educational, and cute. Soo please!!! *insert seven year old's puppy dog face* =P doo something 4 dollars a box, we have every kind of girlscout cookie there is. preorder your cookies today!
lol, no one is listening i know, cept james, and jed wont buy any *sniffle*
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[Sun 01/15/06 - 12:58 pm] |
i feel an artistic burst coming!!!! lol. i'm in an okay mood right now. >.> PMSING lol.
Yes matthew, stay away =P
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[Sun 01/15/06 - 12:28 pm] |
Anjui63: buy girlscout cookies from my girlscout troop!
Anjui63: 4 dollars each =P any kind.
Anjui63: lol
PsychotikVisage: gimme gimme gimme
Anjui63: lol
Anjui63: they are more expensive, but the girls get alot more
PsychotikVisage: like i said, gimme!
PsychotikVisage: lol
Anjui63: in exchange for 4 dollars
PsychotikVisage: can't i just have them
PsychotikVisage: ?
if kevin wont buy girlscout cookies, who will!?!
I know James will. >.>' no one else will *Sigh*.
whatever i sell goes towards one of the girls who didn't have a chance to sell them. they get the prizes, and stuff like that.
When i was a girlscout Junior, i got the Patch that said i sold 150+ boxes. or was it the 250+ boxes, it was soooo long ago.i was like 13 years old. 8 years ago.
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[Sun 01/15/06 - 12:10 am] |
i cant sleep!!!
*sigh* Matt invited me to breakfast, but i knew i would have trouble sleeping so i told him i'd see him after work. I would like to see him before hand, but i got the feeling i'm gunna be sleeping in, real late. I should though, but i dont know.
*sigh* i miss you hon ;)
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 11:41 pm] |
Meier Link 566: hihi
Anjui63: hihi
Meier Link 566: oh my god haha vibrating ring
Anjui63: lol you're browsing the site? you sicko
what kind of greeting is that? lol, james james. =P
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 11:40 pm] |
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OMG it's like hailing, and raining out, it dont know what it wants to do out gthere. i'm worried, i hate driving in snow, and rain.
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 11:39 pm] |
.~ http://www.elexabytrojan.com/product.aspx?prod_code=gel
.~ i want that more
Kaimetsu only if i can watch you use it!
Kaimetsu haha kidding
lol the things i tell james. lol, I was kidding about that stuff, i saw a comercial on Comedy central while watching queens of comedy and i got curious, i like to know about new things out there.
i haven't had 'sex' in a while. it's good to keep up on the news lol =P
and i'm like wtf is this? there's like feminine condoms? i dont know lol. What is the world gettign too? need male this female that? well that'st he gel stuff, i'd imagine that is sloppy. But i'm oh so curious. I'm an oddball like that =P i like to ask questions about what this and that is, cause i dont know many people who are active right now, to even ask them lol =P
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 11:27 pm] |
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hahahahahaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaa... omg, i haven't laughed this hard in a while. This girl is making me laugh my ass off, so true. comedy isn't funny, it's REAL.
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 11:24 pm] |
i feel like a pizza with the works lol, that stuff is so addictive!!!!!
I will definantly buy ONE, when i get my tax return, next month, febuary, i'm just waiting for my stop and shop W2 form.
I already know i get back 900-1200 dollars with both jobs combined. =P i hope thats how it works, it might be differant since i'm in a whole nother income bracket.
I know im just going to use it to catch up with bills, no matter what i get, so i'll be ahead, no more behind, and completely on time. =P that would make me happy too.
I'm watching queens of Comedy now, it's funny as hell. i love them.
"how are you going to take love advise from some bitch named left eye?" (referance to TLC)
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 10:00 pm] |
Meier Link 566: tom cruise got castrated
Meier Link 566: thats why he had to pay women to go out with him
Meier Link 566: he had them audition and everything before picking katie holmes
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 9:58 pm] |
watching the H.G.Wells version of the War of the Worlds =P fun movie time. grrrrrr.
i should have went to matt's house, Mom would have killed me if i asked her to move her car though "YOU SAID YOU WERE"T GUNNA GO OUT, I DUN WANT ANYTHING HAPENEDING TO THE CAR STARTING AND STOPPING IT< BLA HBLAH, THEN YOU HAVE TO MOVE IT BACK WHEN YOU GET BACK." etc. lol. wish i had him come here, but again, i dont want to be so selfish. I'm such a confused little girl. =P at the samet ime i watn to be alone tonight. i never thought i'd say that. i dont want to be alone, but i think i should be, because i'm sorta distraught over situations with my mom right now. so i dont know whats going on. i'm trying not to think of things, but i cant help it. she told me not to talk about it to anyone or do anything until she knows for sure whats she's doing, she's emotionally drained right now, i haven't wanted to leave her side all week, i've been buying take out, so she didn' thave to cook, i dont know.
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 9:31 pm] |
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Hahahah i was watching this stand up comedian hahah sooo true, thats all i have to say. Men are the most retarded mammals on this planet, even birds, and reptiles! lol. oh god, i'd get into it, but i promised matt no more men jokes. omg, it's hillarious sorry matt, but alot reminded me of you ;) *Huggles*
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 9:27 pm] |
I feel like crap -.-' i'm still sick, i dun want to be alone tonight. *Sniffle* but i know matt is super tired, so i wont let him come over. I wont be that selfish. he went from work, then went up to massachusets. I didn' t expect him to be untired, so i didn't put my hopes up too much, i guess i'll see him tomorrow. I just miss him real badly.
But it isn't like when i was with jack, i got to see him all the time. =P i have to get used to that. But maybe thats what was wrong with me and Jack, he just didn' tmake me happy, never said the right words, never did anything to try to cheer me up, instead of trying to make me feel better about something that went wrong, he'd do something defensive. in the end, i just got annoyed with all the little things, and i got so scared, that i just couldn't control getting upset so easily. Things dont change though, He's too arrogant, and too selfish. Never wanted to do the things i wanted to do, or was there for me when i wanted him around, even if he didn't enjoy it. I did everything for him, it was never good enough, I did all the things he wanted me to do, i put my heart into everything i did for him, including cooking food, and cleaning things. I wiped off his laptop every now and then, i'd dust his game consoles, i'd place the cds back in the cases, i tried to have things for him to snack on in the house. but nothing ever made him happy, i wasn't good enough as his family was for him, i couldn't buy him nice things, or make life easy for him. like he said, dead weight? alot of stress, and problems because every dream i had, ever had, seemed to fade away, and the only dream i ever really wanted to come true, is to find someone that loved me, to be with, and to love me for who i was, to not be scared anymore. all i ever wanted from one person, was to be loved, and held, to go to sleep with, and wake up too in the morning, and to believe it. like someone who is loved, should. i'd give the world too if i could to the one i loved, i did things i never thought i'd do, when it was for love. i wish i was showed more love, maybe an anniversary gift here and there, or a valentine. little reminders to say i love you, they can be purchased, or hand made never matter to me, if it was a printed card from microsoft greetings. It's the thought and effort, anyone can buy a card, it takes more care to make one. but never... i got one card from Jack, and it said, "my forever love' on the cover. he's a liar. and i hate him for that. Promises are worth more comming from a bazooka bubblegum wrapper. than the promises from his voice, that still echo.
I did read his entry,jack's mostly because it mentioned my physical name, i scan everyone's entries for my name, and then decide weither or not to read them. I know Brian and jules, have been gosiping about me, i wondered if he was in it or not., it hurt alot reading it. But i think he should move too tennesee with his family. it would make his mother happy, he could start fresh, in a good neighboorhood, and make some friends that aren't too busy for him. Maybe he can learn some good country habbits, of what love is, and what love isn't. and find someone special down there, you heard the term southern comfort? I'm sure he'd find it nice down there. Things are cheap down there too, he could have his low rent. Besides i doubt his parents would move, they've been talking about it a whole lot. so he shouldn't stress so much, that's his biggest problem, if he thinks now that they are going to move, he might not try to find someone near him to care about or get attatched. everyone deserves love, no matter how cold they are.
on other notes, something more important is bothering me, that i want to talk to matt about, i need to talk to someone badly about this, it's eating away at me a little bit here and there. but i want to talk to someone in person i guess. i dont know. aghhh it's bothering me so much, but i dont want to put it here, until i know what happens with MOM... UGH..... *stressed* damn it i'm crying again. what the hell. Mom wont talk to me about it, until we get something first. and god, it's so much stress i need to know what is going on, it's driving me insane.
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 8:59 pm] |
woo, alex is home from the hospital. Last time me and matt went to visit kristina alex was there, he's a really shy guy, the second you say two words to him, he blushes. or he looks down.
he went in right after xmas. i feel bad for him. i heard he was there for aw hile, but no one is giving details as to why.
Him and Victor used to come to the backshop and say hi to me, i didn't know but victor would walk to stop and shop, to say hello, and i wasn't even there. and he did that a few times, not knowing i worked overnights. Well thats what kristina said lol, Victor, said he's coming the 28th, so did Alex, and Kristina, Kristy might, but she has to go to Court, with her father i think. Child custody i think. she's 17 soo why bother? by the time the case is over, she'd be old enough to decide for herself, well it might be over her borther's custody he has a few more years than her. i dunno.
Oi, M. chile wants to hang out, some saturday before the party. He's nice, he's from Bridgeport.
Anjui63: soooo NAH =P
Anjui63: *Nyat
Demons313: i don't remember that part so i win hehe yea for me XD
Anjui63: lol
Demons313: aha u laughed so u agree
Demons313: nice to know i hav ur support christine
Anjui63: hahah you're very welcome, loser ;)
Demons313: ur my friend so ur a loser by asscoiation haha those the rules its not so bad being my friend right? T_T
Anjui63: lol, Okay you win,i'm a loser by association.
Anjui63: so you're a winner by being a loser.
Anjui63: and being right about it
Anjui63: i'll brb gotta eat
Demons313: aha ur running little chicken
Demons313: go eat ur dinner or so u say u are
Anjui63: lol
Anjui63: i'm done 'eating my dinner'
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 6:16 pm] |
Man work was awesome, Miok bought me a Bagel and a hot cocao this morning. My boss came in, man she made things harder to work, but it's fun because we rag on eachother lol. I tease her, and she teases me. lol
i did TWELVE special orders today. Savina calls me the cake expert. lol, I even did two cakes that weren't ordered people had me do on the spot, savina was happy i took the orders, because we dont have too, she says beth doesn't normally take in other orders. Well thats cool. I only have to deal with special orders, for 3 days a week. Soo i cant really say anything, you know? With my other job, life has been pretty easy, working every day, YES, but, mostly 4 hours here, 5 hours here, at stop and shop. and housing is an easy sit down fill the time up with little thigns to do, so it doesn't really feel like working and stuff. Once i get a hang of doing my job, time flys.
There's alot of responsibilities for my job that is hard to explain.
Artist : Big & Rich
Title : Holy Water
Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I use to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine wherever she would go
But looking at her now you'd never tell
Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
I can only imagine what she's feeling
When she's praying
Kneeling at the edge of her bed
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water
She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's looking through the faces
The unfamiliar places
She needs someone to hear her when she crys
She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands
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YAY! I got to talk to my Matthew!!! I called him to see if he was having fun, He's at a Convention center up in Massachusets, He's happy because they raised almost or over a 1000 dollars for the Red Cross. That's always good, The Red Cross, Is one of my favorite Charities. I donate blood whenever i get a chance too.
I'm really proud of him, >.>' he's an outstanding person =P
I swear i tried to sound the happiest i could, and underneath it, he knew something was wrong, i sorta paused when he asked "is there something wrong?". and said to myself, how'd he know? I guess thats why i called him, but i also missed him so very much. I was on the phone with James, and typing out my journal update, and then i missed him alot, and i couldn't bare not hearing him anymore, and i said, 'james call me back in 20 minutes'.
I really love him soo much. <3. i sent him, god i hope he saw it. It's a wolf wearing a what's it called, a jumpsuit? nooo Overalls, looking around, and around, and then he looks up and says, There you are!. lol, it's cute. very hillybillyish. lol.
omg i dont know what to do for matt for Valentines day. See, he has never had a good valentines day, so i want to make this one special, and memorable. You know? And i'm not sure what i'm gunna do. it's exactly one month from today that's why i'm worried about it. did you know yesterday was friday the 13th? i had no clue. My dad's birthday is may, on the 13th.
I dunno, he said he'd come over, when he got back, and that he should be back around 7pm, that it is good. I dont have to go to work tomorrow until 1pm, so it's not too late. He has off tonight so thats good. :). God, i feel so energized with my new time schedule, it doesn't feel like i work every day lol.
Mom won 100 Dollars and she gave me 5 dollars for gas in my tank. and she got stuff for homemade tacos, and a bunch of thigns for the house. Yummy Tacos I wish matt was here to try some of her tacos. Matt would like them. maybe we can save some i dunno, never tastes as good reheated...
oi, i miss that boy way tooo much. I think me missing him might cause some problems. Well, i dont want him to think i'm too clingy, But i'm happiest when he's around, so of course, i'm gunna miss him! Haha, i haven't been this happy in years, i haven't been this rested in ages. I feel like i have so much ahead of me, that i want to gobble it all up at one time. lol.
Hahahahaha.
This is me as the ice queen apparently, because i wouldn't come visit my friend today. lol He knew i was upset, but his car is in the dog house. but i didn't feel like going out... so he was all like grr. and edited my picture. of course, it was also because i haven't seen him at all since graduation it would be akward for me, i've never been to his house. i told him, maybe i can get jenny to go with me to visit him, we both know him pretty well. unless matt would go, i dunno if matt knows him, or not.
I'm sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lol, but i take that as a compliment Mister! lol, it's quite pretty actually. cept my face lol. Thank you lol, it cheered me up, but you're supose to make me all evil, with a blue face, and all mean! lol. Thanks Tim. =P
He stole it from my myspace profile i'm guesing i jsut updated that today.
I took those pictures for matt, that and my Shh one. James likes the other ones, i did with the pigtails lol, Matt said i looked like the Swissmiss girl. lol.
Matt said the song "little moments like this" Reminds him of me. Because i do little things wrong, well i mess up, and i blush, and stuff. He said if i ever backed his truck into something, he would probably laugh at me. I asked him wouldn't you get mad? He said, no, as long as i was alright, a truck can be replaced or fixed. but he would definantly laugh at me. Soo mean, yet soo sweet.
I remember all the things matt says to me... The time he said, 'i want you to get to the point where you can stand in a room full of people, and know you are treated better than anyone else there'.
I'm happy, which is good, and between Matthew, my new job, My new outlook on life, . My new resposnibilites for the bakeshop. My present (my car) to myself, The wonderful girlscouts!!!!! everything, makes me feel really good
I cant say everything is peachy.... Because, well i wanted to talk to matthew first about the two things... and i want to see how things unfold with mom first. before i say anything to anyone but him, I'll tell james, but thats it.
I gotta stop talking, the rest would just be about matt, because i miss him now lol.
I love you hon! dont forget that. =P
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[Sat 01/14/06 - 3:44 pm] |
Quickie:
What you had hoped for is about to be realized. Just keep thinking positively!
Overview:
What are you waiting for? It's your time to come out into the limelight. Yes, it feels like your knees won't ever stop wobbling, but no matter what, you have to step up. Your cosmic duty is to shine like the star you are.
Going out? Bet you are. Bet you're really looking forward to it, too. After the week you've had, it's not surprising, but it's also quite possible that a dear one has arranged an impromptu gathering at their place -- which means you won't be stuck doing the clean-up all day tomorrow. Which means you can have yet another delightful weekend day.
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[Fri 01/13/06 - 8:37 pm] |
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UPDATE people update!
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[Fri 01/13/06 - 8:26 pm] |
No seriously there is NO differance, even in power,
I have a 2.7 liter engine, v6 Sebring Touring, there's not one differance.
I dont like how there's only one key whole in the entire vehicle though, everything is power locks, and Keyless entry. -.- it's okay though, as long as i my battery on my key thing, or the back up one they gave me, runs out lol. I like it quite alot.
She's worth it i believe, she definantly is pretty, before james ruined the windshield.
I have to take her for regular maintance on the 26th, i need to get the windshield fixed by that time. i had already pushed the schedule back until then. it was supose to be the 18th. so hopefully ... James can come up with the money by then. or else i'm screwed -.-'.
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[Fri 01/13/06 - 8:22 pm] |
oh wow, i compaired the cars, the sebring regular and the sebring touring, there's a huge differance, here i thought they were pretty much the same...
This is the year after's version of my car: the 2006 Touring edition:
Notice how un differant it is:
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[Fri 01/13/06 - 5:51 pm] |
i haven't really updated a whole lot, cept for bits and pieces.
This week was pretty good. Wednsday, me and Jenny hung out, because we couldn't go to Gotham because she had to be to work at 6am, and she didn't get paid until thursday. Which is alright for me, i'm not quite ready to be going dressed up as a goth, to some club with lots of other gothy people. quite yet. But i'll try to some other time, >.>' lol
But we went out, we went to the store, we also went to My Sister's place, the Consignment shop in ansonia, and i got her some things, and i got two lovely sweaters for my New job. I got some bowls, and got Jenny some bowls too.
Then we walked downtown, and we went to Pilgrims, the food place, and i bought her lunch, I got her like, a grilled porked sandwich in meat sauce, on a portugese roll, and i got myself, two grilled hot dogs, i love fresh hot dogs on the grill, Ma usually makes them boiled, ewwie.
Uh she stayed over for aw hile, and we watched Logan for a few hours, and then i dropped her off at her house, she lent me more cds.
Of course i've seen matt a few times this week, but i haven't yesterday and i wont today, or tomorrow, He's going to a convention tomorrow, in Massachusets from his Starwars Group. I've never seen him in his Cosplay outfit. >.> oddly enough. I've seen pictures from their website though.
Um, I went to the docs, yesterday i've got a stomach virus.
Work at housing as been funtastic, lol. not really but it's an easy job, and it's good experience, so it's worth it. it's not boring persay, but everyone goes really slow, and takes their time, and if they dont, like i dont, i end up with nothing left to do... i dont know.But atleast i got somethign to fall back on, i work on their website =P.
Today me and lisa and terri took over for mary the cafeteria lady. so around eleven thirthy, noonish, the chicken wasn't done yet, because it came in frozen, it's usually mostly cooked, or atleast thawed out. so the old people were mad that their lunch was late. then on top of that their orange juice, smelled and tasted spiked, so they went on about it through out their entire lunch. after they ate, and we ate lunch. Which was Chicken, spinach and yams. we washed all the dishes and dried them, and passed out Ginger cake.
(not too long ago that i'm a phycopath for remembering this 30 second conversation)
ME:My ceilings are dirty *points to spider webs, and moth balls* spider's fault.
Matt: Why dont you clean it? Spiders need a clean place to eat too.
ME: I'm not his maid! he can clean it himself!
Matt: I didn't know you had a roomey. *laughs*
Woah, lol like she said Deja Vu
Terri clark Everytime I Cry
You call and wake me up, the way you always do
Say you miss me and you're sorry, deja vu
You push the button in the heart you know so well
The wall starts coming down then I remind myself
Everytime I think you might have changed
Put aside the anger and the blame
Make myself believe that there's a way to work it out
Everytime you say let's try again
Begging me to let you back in
Everytime I do
Everytime you lie
Everytime I cry
If only promises could just erase the past
I could open up my heart enough to take you back
But we've been down that road
Time and time again
I've learned the hard way how the story always ends
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[Fri 01/13/06 - 12:27 am] |
Sean and mom just got into a nother huge fight.
It's heart breaking... i feel like crap, and mom is coughing and stuff, completely stressed out, i think she's crying in her room.
It's getting really hard. He has 4 of his friends over, all making loud noises, and singing, and i got work in the morning. it's almost impossible to sleep...
i dont feel good too, i could usually sleep through almost everything. when i'm sick.
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[Thu 01/12/06 - 9:39 pm] |
I dont mean to be pushing an ISSUE here. but...
haha you got to see this. i was looking for wedding toppers, for my sister's wedding cake. and i saw these two, and i thought of you ;)
http://acmoore.com/projects/weddingproducts.asp?ID=5
the first two in top corner. Can we have those for our cake? You know, Since you push the issue all the time! i luuuuvvvv you honey wuney.
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[Thu 01/12/06 - 7:35 pm] |
i've been sick all day, i went to the doctors, i got a stomach virus. *sigh*
I don't know why i'm afraid to tell matt i'm sick. been sick for two days.. I guess i do know why. but eh.
after the doctors, i went shopping to get some stuff for mom. I got two large packages of chicken breasts, 2 things of ground turkey, and 2 london broils. blah.
Work was alright, i had diarhea, so my butt hurts, and my tummy is still a little upset. Nothing major had to be done at work, except what i was working on tuesday. so it was okay to frequently use the bathroom.
Beth has been messaging me on Myspace about things concerning the bakeshop. not beth we all know, the other cake decorator...
I guess it's okay i get to hear her side a little more. that's always good.
oh gods, i'm so bored....
I'm a little overstressed, and bleh. I think it's tryign to adjust to the time change. i have ALOT more time on my hands, and nothing to do with it. I've been awake since 7am, and bored out of my mind.
Now this is when i wish i was married, and had something to come home too. but instead its a dark room, the smell of mouse cage, and a kitten crying at the feet to be picked up, and gabe snoring on the mattress.
So i went to the doctor, cleaned today, the kitty litter, the floor, i did my clothes, sprayed febreeze in the living room, went and payed my portion of the rent.took a long hot shower. dried my hair, ran back out to the store, came home, and i'm still bored. fudge. I did take a short half hour - forty five minute nap, after the doctors, because i do feel extremely sick. I usually feel very down when i'm sick.
Whenever i got sick mom would just tell me, 'go sleep'. but i cant sleep, so every time i went in the living room or kitchen she tells me to go to sleep, but i'm not tired.... so i tell her that, and all she says is, Well stop complaining!
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[Wed 01/11/06 - 10:55 pm] |
Sun in Libra:
In this lifetime your guiding principle or underlying motivation is the golden mean, the ideal state of balance and symmetry, the moderate course that avoids extremes, the happy medium.
An essential aspect of your path involves bringing together and harmonizing opposing energies, finding a balance and a meeting point between them and creating bridges so that interrelationship is possible.
The concept of relationship is key, Christine, whether it is the relationship of colors in a painting, between objects on the mantel piece, between nations or between two people. You have a highly developed sense of style, or harmonious arrangement, of correct, appropriate and beautiful relationships. Aesthetics are very important to you, in your surroundings, in people, in the manner in which things are done. You are artful (in both the positive and negative sense)in the way you approach life.
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You may remember, Christine, in your deeper meditations and dreams, experiences from long ago when you were among great artists, sculptors, poets, and craftsmen of ancient India as well as the more recent leaders of prosperous, classical Greece.
Venus is the planet of love, beauty and art, so it is very appropriate to convey the symbolic essence of the sign Libra, which it rules. Venus' influence through Libra also makes that which is crass and primitive quite unnatural for you to accept gracefully, or to participate in willingly.
You may also have been among many who reincarnated in the American South just before the Civil War. In the present you may have to learn the lesson of providing for your own needs, luxury and comfort rather than having others do provide these things for you. In fact, Christine, one of the challenges of Libra lies in being too liberal or indulgent with oneself. With prayerful application of your will, this too can be overcome.
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Chapter 1: Nodes of the Moon (Your Karmic Doorways)
North Node of the Moon in Taurus
You have gone through extreme, sometimes violent, transformations in prior lives, Christine. This has left you with a feeling of being off balance, each crisis pulling the rug out from under you.
In a past life (or number of past lives), you have abused your talents and personal powers to the detriment of those around you. This may have the effect of finding many people who express a violent dislike for you without any visible reason. They will appear whenever you allow your ego to rule your desires.
There are possible lifetimes spent as a revolutionary and most people with this placement have experienced the forces of witchcraft. Other possible past lifetimes were as detective, spy, researcher or alchemist.
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